I was thinking about the concept of scarcity.

It brought a question to mind... Why would I withhold anything from myself?

I started contemplating.

This is an interesting train of thought to start with one’s self.

If Life is abundant, Love is abundant, why do I only let a little in?

How can I open completely? To All?

This morning I was using rapéh, a form of sacred tobacco, before jumping into my morning routine. I am typically very careful about using medicinals, but had used this one on a few more occasions than normal. Afterwards, while getting ready for the day, I noticed that I was chiding myself internally for overuse. I essentially was looking in the mirror and "beating myself up." This is a habit of the past which I immediately noticed was trying to creep back in. So I stopped. And then I laughed at this part of me that was scolding and shaming myself. 

Then I asked myself these questions...

Is the love I have for myself conditional? And, if so, is that what I want -to love conditionally?

I smiled and chose to feel love for my BEING. Yes, overuse and having a substance be a master over a part of myself is not healthy. But truly, the way to set down any master outside yourself is through self love. I gave up drinking a number of years ago when I accepted the part of me that used alcohol as an unhealthy coping mechanism. Loved that part of me who was vulnerable and weak, seeking substance to deal. It was in the acceptance of myself that I was able to let it’s grip go completely.

Conditional love is like drinking life through a straw. It feels really good when you set the straw down and take a full breath of the abundant air available.

Inviting you to start conversations like this with yourself. Where are you withholding Life/Love from yourself? Where are you not free?

Diving deep into thoughts, beliefs and patterns that keep us living life small, living in ways other than in complete freedom and love. I would love for you to join me!