The last couple of days I have been sitting with my own judgment, contempt, and distain for people who I had believed "harmed me," and feeling into how I have held onto a desire for justice. I began to see my unwillingness to forgive, and to see the great harm I was causing. My own destruction and disconnection with the world, with Life.

This wasn't on the surface, but deeply held, protected by my own sense of self-righteousness, anger, and pain.

I held onto these hurts as a way of protecting myself. Protecting myself from "other," someone different than me, someone less evolved, un-awakened.

This was my secret desire for control shrouded in Virtue.

As I began to peel back the layers, I realized that this way of "protecting myself from other" kept me in my own prison of the heart -shackled to distrust and fear.

When I finally began to open the door, taking a step into my own freedom, I realized that as much as I have been hurt by not "being seen" by others, and wanting to be seen, I have not been able to see others as well. I was judging them by operating out of fear & distrust.

I chose the Lady of Justice to represent this post. She is blindfold -as I have been blinded. 

I love this piece by Kahlil Gibran. It speaks of my own journey into freedom from desiring justice...